I have been in love relationships with many straight men.
I found, in each one of them, an extremely strong emotional longing and bond for me -- as strong as I had for them. But, I also found that their needs and feelings were heavily controlled by their minds (brain as against heart) which did not allow the longing to be expressed openly.
And I found all of them struggling bitterly within themselves. I realised that the society has divided them into two parts. One part wanted to be with me -- more than anything else in this world. One part that was willing to die for me. And the other part, which was completely in control of the society which was not going to allow the relationship to come out at all, although it allowed it to form it secretly without being acknowledged.
All the relationships finally broke, because the part that the society controlled were much more powerful. And, I was always heart broken, thinking the love wasn't reald. But its not true. Their love was as pure as mine. As devoted and as committed.
Then why couldn't they leave the society, even in secret and in private, for me -- why were they scared to accept and acknowledge their love for me, when faced with the choice. And left me rather than fight the society with the intense love that they had. Afterall, you know all those male-female couples that die for each other, when they cannot meet because of social pressures. Then can we say that male-female love is stronger than male-male love.
Definitely not. The love I experienced for these men, and the love that I saw they had for me, was the strongest that can be in this world. Then why did our relationship break? The answer to this question, I feel, is finally going to explain a lot of things, and probably pave the way to finding a solution in the future. It was not 1% less than the love that makes a man and woman decide to commit suicide together when the society makes it impossible for them to meet. In fact it was a lot more than that.
The thing is that the social mechanisms have forced the men into breaking themsevles into two parts. The mechanims break their inner souls from their bodies, so that the inner-soul doesn't have any control over the outer body, and what it does. The inner soul represents our feelings, desires and basic needs. While the outer body, which is directly in control of the society is represented by the head (brain) which is in complete control of the outer body, his actions, his attitudes, etc.
Why does the society break straight men into two parts? Because, the society cannot control the inner-soul. That is determined by the nature. So, it cuts off the portion that it cannot control and keeps the body and the brain under its direct control.
And this is where the oppression of men start.
The brain, which becomes a puppet of the society (which in turn is controlled by the forces of heterosexualisation) doesn't let the inner-soul see the light of the day. it doesn't give it any space. In fact, it develops a hatred for that inner-soul. The body and the brain were supposed to be a vehicle for the inner-soul to realise itself into this material world. But, since in men the inner-soul lose this vehicle, the soul has no space to live. It is left somewhere deep down, mutilated by the brain, in a damp, suffocated dungeon, where it never sees the light of the day.
And then if without suspecting, the outer body allows another man to come close to the soul, the soul falls in love with him. The body doesn't like that, and it tries its best to end this there and then. But the body can also feel the sensual pleasure that the other man brings, and it is enticed to give in a little -- in fact a lot, but as long as the inner soul is not bared/ exposed to the outside world, it allows the relationship to flourish.
The inner soul, which is weak by now, and undeveloped, falls deeply in love with this man who reaches out his hand to touch it... And, eventhough the body doesn't want it and probably doesn't even know, the inner-soul develops a deep bond with the other man.
And then a time comes, when the bond becomes so strong that it starts forcing to come out, to see the light of the day, even if in private, between the two men. This is unacceptable to the body, which through its control of the society, is not allowed to ever, ever let that soul come out. Not even in privacy.
So, then it is time for the body to take action. He does still try to settle matters without having the inner-soul to come out. But, when the bond demands that the soul be allowed out, in a limited way, then the body takes the ultimate action. It kills the bond, mutilating the inner-soul beyond recognition and forcing it inside the deep dungeon again, with an intensity/ cruelty that was not shown at it ever so far.
The bond dies, and in a way, the inner-soul too dies, in both the men. And it is no different from two people -- a man and a woman who commit suicide because they couldn't be together.
I was different from the men I was in relationship with. Because, I had learned to rebel, to fight the social mechanisms -- and it was divine intervention. There are very few straight men who get the opportunity to escape these mechansisms that break them into two parts and control their bodies.
My inner-sould and my body were still one. My inner-soul controls my body, and my body works for my inner soul, as its vehicle. I don't suppress my inner soul, but I allow it to grow, as far as possible considering that the outer world (society) is so hostile to it, that it will kill it through other social mechanisms, the moment it spots it (ridicule, peer-pressure, throwing with the third gender).
But in the straight men, this is the reason why they never think of fighting the society for their inner-soul. When ever a fight erupts, they just kill their inner-soul.
And, liberating men would imply liberating their bodies and brain from the various psycho-social mechanisms that control it. So that eventually, the inner-soul is liberated and is allowed to see the light of the day. So that they too can fulfill the purpose for which each soul comes to this earth, to realise itself through the body.
How to liberate the bodies is still a mystery!
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